I will admit, I have a hard time with submission. I’m not comfortable with the idea of someone else having control over my life. I’ve spent years being a follower. Following my friends, the latest trends, lovers, other peoples’s opinions and my parents. Never once have I sat down and decided what do I want. What do I desire? What are my own beliefs and values? So for the first time, I want to be the director of my own life. When I first met Sir, I was drawn to him by his level of understanding and patience. Initially, there were struggles with obedience. And he was almost ready to release me for our contract. But I was open with him about my concerns, and he was there for me. Just like any other good Daddy would do for their little girl. He said to me, “Give me three things you are willing to give up control over. And we’ll start there, until your comfortable enough to give up all of it”. As time has progressed, he has help me developed a high level of trust and confidence. I express myself more freely, and I actively listen. Because I know that with each decision, Daddy will be there for me every step of the way. He will not leave me in the dust to deal with anything alone. It feels amazing to be supported. And to know that you’re being lead by someone who of integrity and honesty. I would’ve never known that BDSM would helped me in so many areas of my life. It’s not just a hobby for me. This is a lifestyle.